[ .d i s c l a i m e r. ]
[#two big rule]
To navigate, click on the words on the left
my tears are flowing
and my mind is playing thru
the day you said you liked me
alone in my room
all dark and lonely
that day you left me
it was raining
going thru our memories
i started crying
again...
Monday, November 06, 2006
I can't help it
I'm so sorry ... I really do ... for not blogging or posting ...
why do you have to keep popping into my mind when i tried pushing you away ... tried to keep myself busy so as not to think of you so much ... i had enough of all this ... i seriously need to move on ... i really do ... stop coming back to me ...
i can't help myself ... everytime when i'm online .. i would check to see if you're too .. just another part of daily routine to me ... i tried kicking the habit so that it would be less painful but still no matter how long i endure .. i still check on you .. hoping that you would online ... hoping to chat with you ...
i'm sorry mate for not posting any new entries .. lots of things happened and was really tired ... had "tea session" with Sqn CO and Commander 3rd flot ... all thanks for my 7610 .. but i really do miss "him" now for he has been away from home so long ... away from me ... come back to me ... i need you ..
everyday had been normal to me .. work, home, mambo, duty, work, work, work .. i just get so piss off that he had been treating me like a idiot just like how the fucker blackie was treating me when i first posted to the ship ... i'm not stupid ... STOP treating me like i'm some kind of freak ... do you really think i'm a cat ... i'm human also you bastard ... you useless-good-for-nothing fucker ..
i'm really tired le ... i need to live for my own ... i sick of crying ... i'm sick of been toy around like a ball ...
that's it
dead
sky82 @ 11/06/2006 12:53:00 AM

m.e
te.ars
ex.i.ts
tal.king ey.es
reme.mber