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my tears are flowing
and my mind is playing thru
the day you said you liked me
alone in my room
all dark and lonely
that day you left me
it was raining
going thru our memories
i started crying
again...
Thursday, July 20, 2006
just pics and words

The Oakley Bag that i bought together with raymond. We were at town and decided to buy a new bag and this is a great one where i can store alot of things. Lots of compartments. So far is the most expensive bag that i bought but i really like it so not much of an issue. Shall upload my LV coin purse and credit card holder some other day when i take pictures of it.
Another pic with raymond. He's so sweet, so funny. Enjoy my company being with him. We were at town after tanning at sentosa. Was really tan at that moment of time but now color is fading away. Got to 'replenish" the color again soon. I wouldn't want to be a fair chicken again. *=X*
Went mambo yesterday. Was fun. Really fun. "Summer Rain" came at 0200hrs. Really enjoy myself alot. Made lots of new friends. *signs* The next mambo session would be like sept. When i'm back from MSTD sailing. I already miss going there where i almost know the dance steps of every popular songs. I just enjoy looking at those people on the dance floor looking at the regulars and trying hard to follow the dance steps. I have since upgrade from the dance floor to the platform. A much better place to dance rather than squeezing in between the crowds. *nods*
I have since move on. No point in clinging onto something not worthy. I do feel upset at times but humans are like that. Like looking at the past. I admit i had cried. It was foolish of me. I have been blinded, blocking my sight. I just don't understand. Is it really that hard to give a hug when a requested is being made. What's so ashamed of. I would normally get one when i open my arms and say "I wan hug hug". A big teddy hug would be coming my way. Just who the fuck are you? Who the bloody fucker are you? I hate you. Get out of my mind. Go away.
That's it for now. Got stuffs to settle. Time goes by, so slowly.
P.S. Cherish the Love. Cherish the Life you have.
sky82 @ 7/20/2006 08:49:00 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Same Old Brand New Jun

Had my duty off yesterday. Damn i was so happy. Able to sleep till i had enough and without having foul smells to irritate me. So i woke up at noon time and went shopping. Yup, you didn't see wrongly, i DID went shopping. *nods*
I love my old self although it was quite a wasteful one actually. Had lunch at thai express and i just love the food there although i did feel kind of like "xin tong". After lunch went walking around aimlessly, just trying to forget some unhappy things and went had my hair color. I just love jess so much. She just knew what i want. *nods again*
After coloring lesson, went taka and bought some sandwinches to munch on. Normally i wouldn't do that but i don't know why i did that too. Just eat and eat and eat. So while waiting for raymond to meet me after his work for dinner, i went to Louis Vuitton. *=D* I just love Louis Vuitton so much. Wasn't much customers inside when i went in and lucky that the salesperson is friendly. I requested to have a look at the credit card holder and the coin purse & purposely ask for other imprints to compare and finally...
I've decided...
to buy both the coin purse and credit card holder. I was so happy. So very happy when i left the place. Keep smiling. I don't care if it cost me a bomb or what. I'm happy to get the brand and things i like. Even if the rest says that it's not nice, i don't care. Go get it if you can, if not SHUT the FUCK up. *....* I'm not spending your money and get it straight into your stupid brain. *evil smile*
I did ask for the price of the bag that i wanted and the person says have to order from Paris and need to wait for like 2 to 3 months. Price of bag = $1680 if not wrong. Maybe i should get it. *nods* then i would have LV bag, LV wallet, LV coin purse, LV credit card holder. I'm just a LV siao *nods nods*
Enough of LV le. Today is Wednesday again and i would be at Mambo again. *smiles* I know i would be tired tomorrow but still i would go. I don't care. Just that next wednesday i couldn't go. *sob sob* got to enjoy this Mambo tonight.
That's it. Enough said. I need a nap.
P.S. Enjoy Life. You would have plenty of time to rest when you're dead.
sky82 @ 7/19/2006 05:27:00 PM

Wednesday, July 12, 2006
i'm a narcissist
Yup yup. *nods* It's Mambo Wednesday AGAIN. I'm so happy and excited bout tonight. Somehow it's extremely special tonight. Maybe due to the fact i'm having my off day tomorrow and i could stay till the whole mambo thingy ends *winks*. I'm just trying patiently to sit still and waiting for the time to arrive.
i'm such a narcissist. I love myself. I'm a metrosexual too *nods* I love to make myself look good, maybe feel good actually by buying lots of clothes and just lots of clothes. Spending too much money actually and lost track of where the hell did my money went to. *hmmz*
Was feeling damn dirty today. Had to sit in the smelly fucker car. Imagine that the car is black throughout, under the afternoon sun, without winding down the windows and turning your "air-con" to the temperature of between 25 to 30 degrees celsius. It was damn warm and damn smelly with the whole car having the stench of the smelly fucker. *faint* I was suffocating inside with noone helping me. *sobz sobz*. Imagine too that where there is shade to park the car and the smelly fucker have to park as usual, right under the HOT afternoon sun. *clench fist* How i wish to just slap him HARD on his face and ask him to use more of his brain than his arse to think. *evil* Seriously speaking. He's STUPID and making everyone stupid with the things he does. Damn you, you smelly-hairy-stupid-useless-act pathetic- good for nothing fucker. *evil again*
Anyway that fucker says he would be away for like 6 months. Damn happy. *claps* Everyone is clapping and beaming with joy. Especially all the juniors. Yup, the NAVY likes this kind of act garung people but the ship doesn't like you. By the way, who are the fuck are you actually. You are not even a PO and not even a IC, furthermore i'm not an OJT and i don't need to report to you where i go. Stop trying to use NAVY directives to surpress me down cause i don't give a DAMN. I just have to do what the jobs and i would fuck off. Stop imflicting your useless passion *laughs* on people. Your systems sucks and still act like you're such a professional. The only passion i have for NAVY is the money and not the will to work and staying back till late and not going for my duty-off or any other offs. I think i have a fulfilling life rather than staying in ship and making my life dull and grey.
P.S. For you i wouldn't ...
sky82 @ 7/12/2006 06:34:00 PM

Monday, July 10, 2006
it was BLUE
Today was blue. Everyone seems so moodless. I didn't have the motivation to work. It was Monday. It was the ship. It was him. *signs*
Shouldn't be blogging bout work today. Nothing much happens actually and i would be having my duty tomorrow. Worst still, lots of things to do tomorrow. Damn, i just hate working. I hate the life i am going through now. *stomps feet*
Seriously i wanted to clear my leave. Seriously i want to go for a holiday. I have been talking about it since posted or i should say since i was an OJT. I just wanted to run away, avoiding things. I want to be alone. Somewhere where noone would talk about work. Somewhere where noone would ask or say "Go POL and clean up the oil", "Go check on the purifier", "Go check the header tanks", "ENS 8 Call 160 ENS 8". Somewhere where i wouldn't need to greet those fucking 1SGs and SSGs and Officers. So what we all are in the Military. I came to do my fair share of work and not to just greet you all. *glares*
I'm currently feeling quite depressed. I don't really feel good. I don't feel happy too. I miss my friends. I miss the good old times. I'm quite a loser actually. I don't have car licence and i don't own a car. I don't have $$ and i'm spending more than i earn. i don't have any special ability inside me and my memories sucks like hell. I'm not tall and most importantly which everyone is saying "I'M FAT". The big capital letters F.A.T.
P.S. uh-huh...
sky82 @ 7/10/2006 09:25:00 PM

Sunday, July 09, 2006
anyone ..
Was to blog yesterday when i got home from clubbing but was too lazy and sort of like just wanted to "nua" one place and stop whatever thing i'm doing. *nods*
Just woke up not long and was quite pissed off cause i woke up so late. Planned to just doze off for another while when i woke up at around noon time but when i woke up again, it was already 1600hrs. Bad timing cause if i were to go out, it would be too late and furthermore it's drizzling now. *signs*
Sunday would just pass me by just like that. Doing nothing, staying at home, facing my computer, getting pissed off by my stupid dog, lousy programs showing on television. Basically, this is a lousy sunday. *claps*
Nothing interesting happen for this week. Major events are sun-tanning at sentosa, clubbing (as usual), getting pissed off by the smelly fucker, kanna suffocated by the smelly fucker, kanna molested by the smelly fucker. *hair pulling* *ROARS* *signs*
P.S. If only ...
sky82 @ 7/09/2006 04:34:00 PM

Wednesday, July 05, 2006
depressed
was to blog yesterday but was too tired and busy with some other stuffs that's why there's isn't an entry from me for yesterday but nevertheless i would blog now at this wee hours and before i went to bed.
was extremely feeling morale low due to the fact i extremely unhappy with the "zhou hei lun". firstly, the stench. secondly, he likes to act pathetic. thirdly, he's stuipd. i'm sorry to say that but it's the truth and the fact that he's stupid. damn, he's pissing me off day by day with him onboard.
the later part of the day was better cause knowing that i would be able to go for my finally-approved-official polling day off.
so i went out with leon today for superman and the movie was so-so. the day turn out to be a bad one cause we couldn't communicate well and for the matter of fact, he pissed me off. we met like 1330hrs and ended no dinner and coffee session. decided to head for home instead. actually wanted to just walk around and spent some time alone but no $$ on hand so just went home instead.
i found something. something which no one would believe. i don't have the feeling of shopping anymore. i used to love shopping alot but now whenever i felt like buying something, the feeling would just go away in a snap of the fingers. walking around town wasn't as fun as it used to be. eating food wasn't as fun as it used to be either. especially in singapore. prefer to spent $$ overseas. just don't understand why. maybe it's a totally brand new experience and the things was different from singapore. here (singapore) was getting more and more boring. i'm sick of the weather, the people, the food, the management.
enough said.
P.S. Please Take One. It's FREE!!
sky82 @ 7/05/2006 12:33:00 AM

Sunday, July 02, 2006
fulfilling
It was a good way to start and end a Sunday. After handing over to the smelly f**ker & off to my cabin to get change and get ready to leave. Hitch a ride from kevin's car and off to help him shifting bed in his new house. Yup, he's moving soon. Didn't get to shift anything cause it has already being done and we just had breakfast at the new coffeeshop just downstairs near his carpark. Was actually looking out of the "yellow box" specially catered for smokers like me and found 2 of them at a corner. Lazy to shift our butt there, we just eat and off we go.
Was to head for some tanning session again at Sentosa but last min ah lieh couldn't make it cause activated for duty but nevertheless it's ain't gonna stop me from being called a "white chick" anymore and i meet up with raymond to proceed as plan. We reach around 2pm and it's was crowded. We chat, we laugh and basically i enjoy myself. Didn't really get a good tan but i ain't fair anymore. That's the good part.
After we left the "Island Life, Sentosa", decided to head for town to get our head a nice hair cut. We decided to take a bus there but the bus keep reversing and forwarding at the same place and we wasted much time at the toopid bus interchange. Bet they didn't did their PMS. *nods*
We still had our hair cut and dinner was settle at cineleisure. Some window shopping while we both keep trying out new clothes and not buying anything. *laughs* What to do, our salary isn't here yet. *sob* Lots of things to buy but shouldn't be wasting anymore $$ due to the fact my family is asking for more now. *signs*
Maybe i should really move out and stay on my own. I could save even more. Their $$ hole is never full and i just being forced to keep feeding it and feeding it and feeding it and feeding it. Told you guys that i'm a MONEY TREE to them. That's why i love to go shopping and spent every single bit of my salary away rather than filling up the hole. I hate it. Think i better stay onboard ship and help people do duty than staying at home. Home is not a Home anymore.
I couldn't even make my dreams come true if i continue this way. They are preventing it from happening. They are stopping my advancement.
P.S. Set me free
sky82 @ 7/02/2006 11:13:00 PM

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