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my tears are flowing
and my mind is playing thru
the day you said you liked me
alone in my room
all dark and lonely
that day you left me
it was raining
going thru our memories
i started crying
again...
Monday, November 06, 2006
I can't help it
I'm so sorry ... I really do ... for not blogging or posting ...
why do you have to keep popping into my mind when i tried pushing you away ... tried to keep myself busy so as not to think of you so much ... i had enough of all this ... i seriously need to move on ... i really do ... stop coming back to me ...
i can't help myself ... everytime when i'm online .. i would check to see if you're too .. just another part of daily routine to me ... i tried kicking the habit so that it would be less painful but still no matter how long i endure .. i still check on you .. hoping that you would online ... hoping to chat with you ...
i'm sorry mate for not posting any new entries .. lots of things happened and was really tired ... had "tea session" with Sqn CO and Commander 3rd flot ... all thanks for my 7610 .. but i really do miss "him" now for he has been away from home so long ... away from me ... come back to me ... i need you ..
everyday had been normal to me .. work, home, mambo, duty, work, work, work .. i just get so piss off that he had been treating me like a idiot just like how the fucker blackie was treating me when i first posted to the ship ... i'm not stupid ... STOP treating me like i'm some kind of freak ... do you really think i'm a cat ... i'm human also you bastard ... you useless-good-for-nothing fucker ..
i'm really tired le ... i need to live for my own ... i sick of crying ... i'm sick of been toy around like a ball ...
that's it
dead
sky82 @ 11/06/2006 12:53:00 AM

Thursday, September 28, 2006
[ Just My Luck ]
i'm dead. in deep trouble. very deep indeed. only a miracle can help me. everything seems so meaningless now.
that's it
mwa
sky82 @ 9/28/2006 06:16:00 PM

Monday, September 25, 2006
[ DingDong ]
i'm tired. exhausted. my energy is leaving my body.
i know the feeling of :
"you miss someone but you don't wish to see that someone cause it would make you upset"
"but if you never see that someone, you would miss that someone like crazy"
you know? *eyes rolling*
i need to sleep. fucking hell. leave me alone will you.
that's it
mwa
sky82 @ 9/25/2006 11:57:00 PM

great monday
having my duty off today. didn't get to work today. so sweet and nice. i just love sunday duty. although it does burn off my precious weekend but nevertheless i can get to go home on monday morning. *nods*
had a great time at dbl-o during sat. too much drink again and as usual, waking up in super drunky mode and couldn't walk properly but i love it. i can't explain why but i just love it. like into a higher state of conciousness. *smiles*
as promised i would try to post as many pics i took during my MSTD trip.

sign board at fremantle

orange scarf at A$2.99 (not all stuffs are expensive actually)

Australia Gelato (still not too bad)

Murdoch University (a 24-hr campus)

Train Ticket to Perth (it's expensive)

In Australia Train (had the route somehow the same as our MRT, wait till you see the station yourself)
guess tat's about it for my pictures. this is like only from my handphone and there's still from my camera and my colleague camera. it's kind of a hassle to post up the pictures anyway. *nods* i'm just too lazy. i still need to edit the pictures before posting them up. lots of jobs to be done.
that's it
mwa
sky82 @ 9/25/2006 02:57:00 PM

Friday, September 22, 2006
back again
just went swimming but drop the idea when i reach the complex due to the fact that there's too much people around. lots of small kids running around and having their swimming lessons. over crowded. damn.
so decided to walk home instead. the sun was hot but still i walk slowly. i just enjoy walking. walking alone. looking at things and people. many says i'm people-watch. true i love looking at people but if you're good looking and dress well but not over dress then you're worth looking at. if no one is watching, why should you bother to dress up which would defeat the purpose.
came across a blog and found the definition of cute and adorable.
"note: cute is is defined as "not that good looking but adorable". adorable is defined as "sweet and charming"." wonder how the person came up with this and wonder if it's true.
getting real emotional now. like going to cry any moment.
that's it
mwa
sky82 @ 9/22/2006 05:38:00 PM

Just a little update ..
I'm so sorry for not updating as regularly as i should. tired from working life. everyday after work, i would just headed for home and sleep. once awhile i would hang out with raymond to walk around or have dinner which means staying out late and waking up early the next day. again feeling tired the whole day.
had a wonderful time at mambo last wednesday. stay throughout the night and dancing happily. i love dancing. well only to those nice tunes and not those funny-never-heard-before tunes. had a number of new drinks on my list too. used to love lychee martini alot and still is my favourite but currently there's blowjob, b52, ak47, rainbow, white russian and the most newest chocolate martini which i haven't tried it yet but would try soon. found this drink on someone's blog and would be searching for the place where they are selling it. heard is at some tantric bar if not wrong. nevertheless, i just want to try it.
it's 1451 now, having my half day ippt off. sort of like long weekend but would be having duty on sunday. hopefully there's off for me on monday.
that's all for now. got to get my copy of 8 days every week. those cheesy tunes.
that's it
mwa
sky82 @ 9/22/2006 02:48:00 PM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006
1am
currently it's 1am on the tuesday wee hours morning. should be slping long ago due to the fact i had to wake up early for ippt on tuesday. the day after 9/11 anniversary. my mind was so occupied that i keep tossing and turning in my bed. just couldn't get to sleep. hopefully after blogging i can get some good rest. *nods*
finally back to singapore for like 3 days. went sailing to surabaya, frementle and kuching. not really interesting ports of call but still i like frementle the best. still miss the domino's pizza they selling there. it taste even better than pizza hut's pizza in singapore. nothing much to buy at the ports other than contraband stuffs like DVDs and ciggarettes. well navy is all about booze, DVDs and girls. in fact i think merchant ships too. *silly grin*
took lots of pictures but i haven't really got hold of them yet. most of the pics are onboard ship and i would try to burn them out when i sail back to changi on thurs. *nods* currently now the ship is in tuas which is like so fucking far away from my home. still don't understand why they have to berth at tuas and not changi. just can't understand the brainless upper management. *nods*
was actually looking forward to wednesday where i can go zouk for my mambo night even though i have duty on thurs. i ain't gonna miss this coming wednesday after so many weeks without mambo and even the wednesday before i set sail for my MSTD trip i couldn't go. (thanks alot for the duty). *cries out loudly*
time for me to go. i'm getting sleepy which is a good sign. my mind is blank which is another good sign. *nods*
sorry guys that i couldn't give you all a detailed description on the ports i have went to but in 2006 which is less than one year i haven since being to 7 ports.
China - Zhanjiang
Sabah - Labuan
Thailand - Bangkok
Taiwan - kaohsiung
Malayisa - Kuching
Australia - Fremantle
Indonesia - Surabaya
more to come on the way. updating as and when when i have the time.
till then ...
P.S. The truth is rarely pure, and never simple.
sky82 @ 9/12/2006 01:20:00 AM

Thursday, July 20, 2006
just pics and words

The Oakley Bag that i bought together with raymond. We were at town and decided to buy a new bag and this is a great one where i can store alot of things. Lots of compartments. So far is the most expensive bag that i bought but i really like it so not much of an issue. Shall upload my LV coin purse and credit card holder some other day when i take pictures of it.
Another pic with raymond. He's so sweet, so funny. Enjoy my company being with him. We were at town after tanning at sentosa. Was really tan at that moment of time but now color is fading away. Got to 'replenish" the color again soon. I wouldn't want to be a fair chicken again. *=X*
Went mambo yesterday. Was fun. Really fun. "Summer Rain" came at 0200hrs. Really enjoy myself alot. Made lots of new friends. *signs* The next mambo session would be like sept. When i'm back from MSTD sailing. I already miss going there where i almost know the dance steps of every popular songs. I just enjoy looking at those people on the dance floor looking at the regulars and trying hard to follow the dance steps. I have since upgrade from the dance floor to the platform. A much better place to dance rather than squeezing in between the crowds. *nods*
I have since move on. No point in clinging onto something not worthy. I do feel upset at times but humans are like that. Like looking at the past. I admit i had cried. It was foolish of me. I have been blinded, blocking my sight. I just don't understand. Is it really that hard to give a hug when a requested is being made. What's so ashamed of. I would normally get one when i open my arms and say "I wan hug hug". A big teddy hug would be coming my way. Just who the fuck are you? Who the bloody fucker are you? I hate you. Get out of my mind. Go away.
That's it for now. Got stuffs to settle. Time goes by, so slowly.
P.S. Cherish the Love. Cherish the Life you have.
sky82 @ 7/20/2006 08:49:00 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Same Old Brand New Jun

Had my duty off yesterday. Damn i was so happy. Able to sleep till i had enough and without having foul smells to irritate me. So i woke up at noon time and went shopping. Yup, you didn't see wrongly, i DID went shopping. *nods*
I love my old self although it was quite a wasteful one actually. Had lunch at thai express and i just love the food there although i did feel kind of like "xin tong". After lunch went walking around aimlessly, just trying to forget some unhappy things and went had my hair color. I just love jess so much. She just knew what i want. *nods again*
After coloring lesson, went taka and bought some sandwinches to munch on. Normally i wouldn't do that but i don't know why i did that too. Just eat and eat and eat. So while waiting for raymond to meet me after his work for dinner, i went to Louis Vuitton. *=D* I just love Louis Vuitton so much. Wasn't much customers inside when i went in and lucky that the salesperson is friendly. I requested to have a look at the credit card holder and the coin purse & purposely ask for other imprints to compare and finally...
I've decided...
to buy both the coin purse and credit card holder. I was so happy. So very happy when i left the place. Keep smiling. I don't care if it cost me a bomb or what. I'm happy to get the brand and things i like. Even if the rest says that it's not nice, i don't care. Go get it if you can, if not SHUT the FUCK up. *....* I'm not spending your money and get it straight into your stupid brain. *evil smile*
I did ask for the price of the bag that i wanted and the person says have to order from Paris and need to wait for like 2 to 3 months. Price of bag = $1680 if not wrong. Maybe i should get it. *nods* then i would have LV bag, LV wallet, LV coin purse, LV credit card holder. I'm just a LV siao *nods nods*
Enough of LV le. Today is Wednesday again and i would be at Mambo again. *smiles* I know i would be tired tomorrow but still i would go. I don't care. Just that next wednesday i couldn't go. *sob sob* got to enjoy this Mambo tonight.
That's it. Enough said. I need a nap.
P.S. Enjoy Life. You would have plenty of time to rest when you're dead.
sky82 @ 7/19/2006 05:27:00 PM

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